unmanageable

feeling quite sian, coz i can't seem to manage both work and studies well.

i mean, this job is not like my previous jobs where i am in control of my workload (well, the workloads in the past were light enough for me to be in control)....I AM FREAKING CONTROLLED BY THIS JOB CAN. i have to complete all my jobs for the day, by the day itself. No bringing forward to the next day is allowed. i am in a MAD RUSH everyday. :(

well, but things are getting better, last week i was in such a lousy mood that i felt like quitting every single day. My mondays were extremely blue the past few weeks.

But i guess i have gotten over the toughest phase. now i am feeling much better, work-wise.

Now, i don't feel like studying at all. i feel like just working and working and giving my best to work.

AHHHH!

I know, i know that it's just the perfectionist part of me showing. When i do something, i make sure i give it the best *if not, why do in the first place?* hence when i am working, i wanna make sure that i perform at the optimum.

Be it work or studies, i wanna give my best. but i cannot, coz all my energies are spent in the day at work, so when i get home, all i wanna do is to watch drama with hubby. or go online and watch youtube vids. SIGH.

Yes, after all the blabbering, i am still quite lost. so, enuff said.

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will be on leave starting Friday after 1pm. then, the whole week next week. no, not visiting much. i need to revise for my upcoming test!