feeling rather restless at work now. didnt go out for lunch, was feeling kinda tired and wanted to just surf internet and rot.

jus made myself some coffee coz i am still feeling tired. tonight got class, workplace law. gonna be intense but i guess Adrian Hoa will liven things up as usual. tomorrow's Org Theory & Behavior class..

and I will miss my darling girl for 2 straight days! *sobs*

she is so very de cute now! she will say 'i want!' to every single toy advertisement she sees and she's just so so playful and cheeky. love her so much!

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I remember telling hubby abt my fear of studying for degree, coz the word 'degree' just seemed so scary and i may not be able to make it, especially after a 9 year hiatus. I also remember hubby telling me that I think n worry too much.

I even changed job to a more relaxing one, took a pay cut, in order to accomodate my studies.

Last term was really tough coz I told myself to study with all my might and not leave anything to chance. I took on 3 modules, studied every Mon, Wed n Fri. It wasn't easy at all and I got into many squabbles with hubby coz he also needed to work late frequently. My main concern was our girl, who was at home with my mum and I felt horrible that neither hubby or me was spending time with her. I remember telling hubby 'you promised to support me when i am studying, why u have to work late all the time and leave bb alone at home?!'.... but it wasn't his fault either. His job is just this idiotically irregular, although such hours also give him the flexibility to go off early or go work later etc.

Thus i decided to take on only 2 modules this term onwards and not stress myself and hubby out. I hope hubby will be able to get a office-hours job SOON also.

And, my worries are more or less alleviated coz I've received my results for last term's 3 modules and I can now be certain that a degree is not that terrifying after all. and now that i am taking on 2 modules, itz easier and i can afford to relax a bit.

hmm, on hindsight, i really shuldnt have taken a pay cut to change job huh...