I am thankful that I am a Christian, where my God is in control of my life and I know I can fully rely on Him, even though I've done so many things that aren't good.
I am thankful for my family who never fails to protect and support me, who will give their All for my own good. Even my little girl.. She is already loving me with every bit of her heart.
Guess the aspect I fail badly in is friendships. Maybe It's just like that in Singapore at my age range, where friends around me are just too busy building their new families, busy working overtime, busy with their own personal problems. Me too, actually. As much as I would like to blame my friends for 'forsaking' me, I can't help But realise that I have forsaken my friends in some way or another cos i was too occupied with my commitments. Whether It's an unintentional decision to forsake or what, doesn't really matter isn't it..
I never had a best friend, or a close clique.. well there was a clique.. But Not anymore. I've offended someone in that clique and She has simply left me behind and moved on. I've tried making amends But She wasn't interested. I can't blame her for that, maybe I've pissed her too much.
Guess I'm Not someone who's that easy going. I am very opinionated and critical, although that has mellowed after I pissed off a few people. Especially with female friends.. realised I cannot get along with a lot of females probably because females tend to be more sensitive towards whatever I say, leading to e higher probability of getting offended... *shrugs* hence I'm especially grateful to the few closer ladies who really love me for who I am and have kept in touch after All their years .. you know who u r.
Life isn't perfect and It's filled with regrets here n there. The correct thing to do, I guess, is to just move on and Not let the past affect our potential to live n love meaningfully.
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