Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. (2 Corinthians 4:16 NIV)
Excerpt of devotion:
"Sin never improves. Human nature has not changed."
"Christ does come to us everyday in the form of Bibles we do not read, in the form of churches we do not attend, in the form of human need we pass by."
Personal application: don't expect God to come to me in the form of a mighty entrance with impressive band music. God is in the little things I remain faithful in.
Don't expect God to help me if I don't help myself.
Don't expect to be refreshed by sunday service's praise & worship time; it's not enough to last till the next week. I have to develop a daily renewal routine.
Prayer: Father, take away my thoughts and deeds that crucify Jesus afresh.
Easier said than done, really. I'm used to lashing out and making sure everyone knows what evil stuff that others have done to me. Now that I have to keep quiet about it cos it's the right thing to do, I'm going crazy literally.
I'm beginning to wonder if I should change LG after all. Or even change church. Start afresh somewhere else, after all God is in my heart and I should go somewhere else where I can try to forget the hurt. Sigh.
Ps Jeff said today, hurt people hurt people. I'm doing exactly what he says. And I hate it. I want to be renewed..
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