The LORD is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed. (Psalm 34:18 NLT)
Excerpt of devotion that truly caught my attention:
"In God's economy, you must become tired and weary of living alone before you seek and find the fellowship of Christ. You must COME TO THE END OF SELF BEFORE U BEGIN TO LIVE."
Today, I seemed to have felt some indifference in the kind of thoughts that were going through my head. U know, those thoughts about the meaning of life, looking for a fulfilling life etc. today I thought, "I'm kinda sian about thinking about the same thing day in day out. I'll just go about living this life, whether meaningful or not!"
And so I came back after work and ate my nice dinner, spent some precious time teaching my girl her spelling while I wrote some Korean revision notes. Then we read 2 Disney Princess stories together. And then I watched the 9pm drama which was quite funny.
And now, I read this devotion which seems to be asking me if I have come to this dead end.
Seriously, I've got no more ideas. I've ran out of creativity juice. I'm not rich enough to quit my current job and do whatever I like, I'm not talented enough to pursue a passion that will earn me money. I'm STUCK.
Disclaimer: This has nothing to do with my family/ marriage/ friendships/ whatever aspects. I'm just battling a personal, internal war here.
I need a solution. :'( Feeling the indifference is making me feel very uncomfortable.
On hindsight, I know I may just be thinking too much. People in poor countries are thinking about where to get their next meal and here I am thinking about how dissatisfied I am!
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