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Just finished my BSF homework. There is this statement in the notes that struck me: WHAT YOU BELIEVE DETERMINES HOW YOU BEHAVE.
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I know of someone who sincerely believes that she will one day become Lam Fung's girlfriend. She will clamber after every chance to be on stage with him, to the point of extreme desperation.
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So I wonder, what do I believe in? It seems like I've been doing quite a lot of floating around. I sometimes read the bible, I sometimes prefer to watch Hk drama. I sometimes feel very close to God, I sometimes prefer to just be alone and do what I feel like doing. I sometimes pray a lot, but at times I just feel so tired. I sometimes have a surge of compassion on people who dunno God, but at times I choose to believe that other people will reach out to them and it doesn't have to be me.
I sometimes post bible verses on fb, yet at times I feel angry with people who don't behave the way I feel they should.
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It's really time to sit down, and think about what I really believe in. What I really wanna do.
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Actually, I do know what i believe in. But I just keep floating around, refusing to start being disciplined and be committed about my beliefs. And that feels horrible cos I jus seem to go with the flow and allow the tide to bring me wherever! I shan't let that happen to me anymore. I shall take captive every thought, every word, every action! And start leading my life the right way.
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That will mean I'll need to eliminate the unnecessary habits/ activities in my life. And start being disciplined with the correct ones! Time to get down to SERIOUS WORK.