watched The Proposal last night and had a good laugh. Ryan Reynolds acts naturally well, without much effort he managed to bring across much humour into the movie.

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sometimes, i hate myself. i am petty, judgmental, critical, snappy, quick to blow up, but slow to get over the argument.

last night, i wondered, why is it so difficult to remain happy and joyful. why can't my life be a bit more predictable, without interruptions or trouble-makers? why can't my personality be a bit more accomodating, giving or gracious??

what loss will i suffer if i am more gracious towards those who err continuously?

nothing, if i know that everything i have is God's and is to honor God.

then knowing this fact, why am i still unwilling to change for the better? why am i still grumbling about my circumstances?

i am having my 2 weeks break now. yet i feel so vexed.